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Journal Entry: Tue Apr 22, 2008, 7:45 PM
I'm tired of things being un-okay. And I'm tired of people dying and being really sick. I'm just tired of it.

It makes me insane.

My grandpa Hoyt died at the age of 86 and he was a wonderful man. My glass-blower friend is still pretty sick (though I see him on sunday to do some glass-blowing with him). And oh by the way, my family forgot to mention that my Uncle has a massive stroke and almost DIED.

Gods it makes me crazy that they never bother to tell me important stuff like this. It's just obscene. If I had known about my Uncle's condition I could have called, visited, or sent a letter! But no, I feel awful that I haven't voiced my concerns to them because I didn't know anything was wrong. It's almost kind of ironic really. I was thinking about my Uncle a few days ago because apparently I've become some sort of table tennis master. I discovered this while playing with Alex and K-chan and his little brother over break. The only reason I can play though is because on my spring break a year or two ago I spent it with my Uncle and we played for at least an hour everyday and he taught me everything he knows about the sport.

My family is stupid. Stupid stupid stupid. I had to call my dad to get his address to send him something and I realized I didn't have his number. So I had to go online and look up his bed and breakfast to call the land line there (the line people use to book stuff). Though, the point isn't that I finally found it after looking around. The point is that I don't have my own father's number and had to look it up on the internet. That's just pathetic. I'm tired of him being a practically non-existent father. Tired of it all.

My anti-depressants aren't working yet and that makes me tired of everything too. I want everything to be okay. I want everything to not feel like I'm falling apart. And I want to be happier. Grrrrrrr. I don't go back to see my doctor in about a month, so it's not as if there's anything I can do about it right now and it is just upsetting.

I swear, if you listen hard enough you'll hear my heart breaking.

~Enthsay


(p.s. On the bright side of all of this crappy stuff, tomorrow is my two-week anniversary with my girlfriend yay! <3)

  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Listening to: my heart breaking
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: the tears fall
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 16
  • Current Residence: Mountains
  • Interests: Reading, writing, and music
  • Favourite movie: Totoro
  • MP3 player of choice: ipod

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~miomo:iconmiomo: Apr 16, 2008, 7:47:16 PM Mood: Happy
Merci merci meric...

The ID I made you is oh so lovely, that I almost want to display it as art XD If I see you tomorrow (I better) bring the Rhapsody book plz!!

<3

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~~ "The aim of art is to represent not the outward appearance of things, but their inward significance." - Aristotle :meditation:
~Enthsay:iconEnthsay: Apr 15, 2008, 8:21:20 PM Mood: Attraction
Aww thanks darling. I do try to be the best that I can be.

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"I try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies. I try to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes."
~Enthsay:iconEnthsay: Apr 15, 2008, 8:20:22 PM Mood: Adoration
I found you first! And yes, I believe you do! Though what you do already have up is quite lovely.

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"I try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies. I try to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes."
~miomo:iconmiomo: Apr 14, 2008, 5:53:17 PM
Yay! You found me.... and I found you! And I need to update my dA.... ahahaha

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~~ "The aim of art is to represent not the outward appearance of things, but their inward significance." - Aristotle :meditation:
~sxxy420:iconsxxy420: Apr 12, 2008, 12:09:49 PM
hello dear.
youre a good poet. it makes me happy. :D

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!jessicamadison:iconjessicamadison: Mar 1, 2008, 5:31:53 AMFlagged as spam
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Wow! You really are a brilliant poet, aren't you?

Why don't you join the poetry contest from [link] ?


It's free and every nitwit such as myself who enters gets a small gift

but someone like you might win one of their $10 000 or $100 000 prizes.
*TavNymblewynd:iconTavNymblewynd: Feb 20, 2008, 9:35:14 PM
x3 glad you found out!

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As soon as your born you start dying, so you might as well have a good time.
~Enthsay:iconEnthsay: Feb 20, 2008, 7:14:16 PM
Bwah well, I wanted to fav a whole bunch of stuff forever and just learned how ^^ (cause I'm an evil genius that way).

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"I try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies. I try to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes."
*TavNymblewynd:iconTavNymblewynd: Feb 20, 2008, 10:27:11 AM
Thank you for so many favs! ^^

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As soon as your born you start dying, so you might as well have a good time.
*TavNymblewynd:iconTavNymblewynd: Feb 1, 2008, 10:13:09 PM
thanks for the watch! ^^

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As soon as your born you start dying, so you might as well have a good time.
~sapphire159:iconsapphire159: Jan 25, 2008, 12:16:09 AM
*watches*

Ohh, skillfull me, I watchez you. :D

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Music speaks what cannot be expressed,
soothes the mind and gives it rest,
heals the heart and makes it whole,
flows from heavens to the soul.:music: